♥06022006♥ 陈思平

♥Tuesday, November 29, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

Jus finish watchin initial d. although tis ish de second time i'm watchin, jielun ish still so shuai~~ hmmm. so sad. haish.. especially de song... yi lu xiang bei..

images still keep coming back. jus now when i'm waitin for mrt at je station, suddenly tink of de time when mi.. u.. and ning went to esplanade to look for music scores... we went home veri late tat night.. and u wanted to send mi to boonlay station but i sae veri late le and u aso tired so u go home first bahx.

u noe sumthin? i'm reali reali veri glad tat eu had given mi so many happi and unforgettable memories. reali~

i can't possibly forget everything when i can't let go.

jus wanna let eu noe. no matter where i am. wad i'm doing. u're always remembered and being thought of. fairytales are fake. piglet can never ever live happily ever after with eeyore. ish leaving de best solution? trying to find de answer to all my questions. when will i wake up from tis fairyworld?

i remembered everything eu sae to mi. everything. i dun wan to rememeber. there's simply too much memories in my past 16 yrs...

i can't ask for anything. i'm not fit to.

| m|ss u @ 1:28 AM

♥Monday, November 28, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

Went thu Bugis and Orchard with Irene Big Laopo on 26/11.. hmmm. veri fun wors. long long time nvr go out with her liaos. hahax.. we were both quite lost at Bugis cos i dun go dere oftenly and she aso muddle-head one. muahahas. and we nearly lost our way. lols.. but we still managed to walk back to de mrt station and went thu Orchard intead cos Bugis.... em.. not nice to walk. hahaz.. and we went to Heeren and ate Wanton noodles. den we took neoprints~ long time nvr take lers. cos jp de close liao den nvr travel jus to take. hee.. and it's a fun day indeed~ thanks irene! [but ls dun be late next time. i sit at de mrt station dere so malu lehs wait for u.]

Kboxing todae at je.. with ben, xiaoyizi and ting.
terrance onli sit dere listen nia. ewww. den we go toilet le den he take de mic and sing. taoyan! hahas. before tat we went jp de arcade for para and aso je de arcade for ddr. lolx. todae sing for 5 hrs. still not enuf lehs.. but it's alrite.. 2 weeks later i still can go again! and aso when i go kukup dere will be lots of time for mi to sing to myself. muahahaz..

hmmmm. tis whole week veri busy. every go out. everyday spend money. die lers.. hmmm. when can i find work man~

| m|ss u @ 10:42 PM

♥Friday, November 25, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

arhs. hate moi stupid hair. sad lehs.. dye so many times de colour still de same. sometimes even blacker. sianz~~~

tmr go ben's marmie which ish moi grandma de hair saloon.. terrance wanna dye hair dere!! hahas. lols. wanna learn hairstyling.. singing... dancing....

and marmie sae mus work and pay myself. humph. last time they not lidat sae de nors. pian ren de pian ren de. ewwww..

furnitures come le. not reali veri happy with my furniture de arrangements. all becos of de fan.. block my cupboard de way den everything cannot put de way i wan it to. taoyan!!!! bad day bad day.

exams de time stress cos of parents de naggings. no exams also stressed by their naggings. dun tink tis could ever end le..

decisions making. i need to make a bigbig decision in one month's time. hmmmm... how.. i dun wish to hurt u. but i cant bring myself to believe in those 'love can be nurtured' de things le. pack of lies.

jie tuo. i need freedom.

| m|ss u @ 10:34 PM

♥Thursday, November 24, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

i tink i'm quite occupied these few weeks already. yeah! dun haf de time to go and tink abt u anymore. finally.......

exams over le~ sho happi. but more and more things began to pile up after my exams.. hope everything ish going well.. if not i will be nagged at again. humph. =(

tmr my room furnitures will come liao. happi happi. finally seperated from siyi. ;) but i tink i'll miss her voice every night. cos every nite before we slp we'll sing and talk and crack jokes and laugh. until we're tired out den we'll fall asleep. but it's alrite. i can go to her room and slp anytime and everytime i wan to =) lols.

i'm now planning and editin de games for kukup trip. cos i'm one of de organiser!!! lalalalala. so proud to be de organiser. muahahas.. hmmmm. genting i'm coming too! miss de roller coaster ride. de corkscrew! and also de rolling thunder mine train.. arhs..... cannot take it liao. mind going everywhere. spliting soon. hehes.

lastly, I STILL WANNA SAE TAT I'M SO HAPPI TO BE OCCUPIED !!!!! kekes.

A love ish easy to feel, but hard to explain.
It ish easy to get, but so hard to let go.
So easy to spell, but hard to define.
Yet everyone's still taking de risk???
Cos tat's love~ worth it!

| m|ss u @ 10:42 PM

♥Friday, November 18, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

woopie doopie doo!!!!
tis year going to de fishing village kukup for de second time... yeah~~~
and...
i'm one of de organiser for games tis time again! yeah~~~
love to spend time tinkin of wad games suitable for de trip.. lols.
and aso wad prizes to give for de winners.. it's on de 17th and 18th dec. i'm looking damn forward to de trip. i tink i'm already quite fully packed during de holidays.. kekes.

28 nov - going kbox with terrance erzi, benjamin marmie and yanting laopo.
2 to 4 dec - chalet at downtown east with friends cum jolene and my belated bdae celebrations.
5 to 7 dec - malacca resort with family
7 to 9 dec - genting highlands wif marmie side de relatives
10 dec - wedding dinner in malaysia
11 dec - going ktv with yanyan jie, jerry gor and some cousins
17 to 18 dec - malaysia fishing village with daddy's side relatives

woohoo~ i tink i shld throw away all my burdens. lidat den can live my life happily..
rite jolene and irene???? ;)

``xiaolingzi's mood: EXCITED!!!!

| m|ss u @ 7:54 PM

♥Saturday, November 12, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

moi dairy..

sweet sweet memories~

eeyore and piglet de sweeties..

de sweet tat i kept until ants come.

he drawn.

de heart he folded for mi.

TVboyZ and TVgalZ...

de letters tat i wrote for him.

| m|ss u @ 2:14 PM

♥Friday, November 11, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

happy birthday to mi?
birthday's nothing without u.

`i noe i'm toopid. but i wun gif up de last chance of hope no matter wad.
dere's still 1 hr and 20 mins. i'll wait... i will.

i noe de one-sided love ish foolish.
sorri but i cant stop lovin u.
ive onli gt myself to blame..

LIFE SUCKS _______________
``waitin for de day tat will nvr come.

| m|ss u @ 10:40 PM

♥Saturday, November 05, 2005♥

I ♥ Mr.Tan

~friends are forever~

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Yanting

`she's nice and sweet.. thanks for everything tat u've given mi... i've known u for 2 yrs lers.. it's not long and aso isn't short. We've been through alot of ups and downs. Thanks for ur understanding and caringness towards mi. i'll never ever forget tat.. we've got alot of common interests tat's y our friendship ish so stable... lastly.. dun forget mi even after o levels k? mus stay in contact de hohs. if not...... divorce u arhs. wahahas.. pian ni de la. hee.. 29/9/05

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Shihan

`she'a a cat lover! treat cats like gold. treat mi like.. diamond~ hehes.. baobei! gambatei in ur studies okies? jiayou jiayou!! she's also a veri fast runner. loves swimming alot too~ she's fun in her way... outgoing and kind. and...... u should see her when she dance. kekes.. damn cute. HOHx? hee. hao la. dun laugh at u lers.. hope tat u and him can live happily ever after... den have some kiddies with u next time when we go out. i've tink too far huh. ;) *muacks*

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Jolene

`laoma~ gettin older liao huh.. =p she's always de one dere for u whenever u need someone to talk to. giving u advices and comments. quite useful sometimes huh =) dunno y she's so experienced when moi dad ish a cello. hmmm.. marmie's so clever! she's veri devoted de. no one can replace moi daddy in her heart.. moi one and onli dad. de CELLO. lols. she's aso veri 'tan chi'.. loves to eat alot. especially chocolates! tat's moi fav too la huh.. hee. marmie. wish u all de best in everything u do~ hugs.

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Humairah

`she's enthusiastic. loves to cheer ppl up when u're down.. helpful too! so nice to go out with u.. alot of stories to share when i'm with u. she's veri understanding.. although we're chinese... she didn't blame us for speaking chinese when we're together and even try and learn chinese.. it's reali veri thoughful for her. mairah.. things always dun go de way we want it to. in order for u to live ur life happily... sometimes we should forget. *winks* u can do it!

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Irene

`she's always so bubbly and cheerful. brings joy to everywhere she goes.. laopo~ remember de times when u came early in de mornin to give mi letters so tat i wun be bored.. last yr's extention period... hmmm. although quite a long time nvr go out with u le. hope u're still de ai wei i once knew. always filled de atmosphere with laughters and joy. reali thank god for lettin mi noe u.. good luck for ur exams~ *stay in touch* 27/5/04

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Huiying

`boo! de fren i knew for 9 yrs... always so cute! veri pro in studies de ar. now got ppl teach u chemistry hohs. i'm so so so jealous~ hahas.. all de best to u for o levels~ cheers!!! ying ar ying.. some ppl not so easily can find de nehs. mus grab hold of every opportunities wors. if not u'll regret de.. hope and u and him are gettin on well... i'll support u de! dun worri... hee. i'm waitin to teach u how to make tiramisu for him ar. kekes... =x

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Josephine

`chio bu~ her studies are always veri good.. she another veri devoted gurl i've ever met.. although she's quite emotional at times, tat's de way one should be rite? express out our feelings... she'a veri quiet when i knew her.. but after gettin to noe her well, she's veri adorable.. hard work pays.... he'll definitely understand ur feelings for him de. go for it okies? tiramisu's recipe will be waitin for u~~

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``xiaolingzi ponders: all of u will be kept in a part of my memories. never to be forgotten..

| m|ss u @ 3:05 PM

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I ♥ Mr.Tan

Tis ish a true storie by my gan-mei.

13/9/05 (thursdae)
todae is the last dae of my paper for the end of year exam.lester actualli sae meet mi after my paper outside sch 4 mi.But then tat dae he not outside my school.At 1st i was rather sad n disppointed not seeing him..Then i reach my block downstairs then i call him at the mama shop under my block.He sae he is outside my sch but i already reached home liaox.He told mi on the fone.he bought mi a 7260..i was like sho shocked euu noe..haha!!..tat was my dream fone..Then he sae meet at e bridge there..sho i ran all my way there.i cannot believe it when i saw him giving mi the fone.tat moment was likea dream!!..then he himself have a 7270.haha...couple fone indeed..i asked him where he got so much money.he sae its his bank interest n he evenpawn a necklace. he told mi his dad wan him to pawn it..i believe him euu noe..cux like i sae..i trust him.so i wanna trust him till the end.then after tat he came to my house. n i get ready to go out wit him..i bath n change my clothes.we went to lots of places tat dae..we went to bugis..haha..we had lots of fun there..then till around evening..we went to the esplanade..its so romantic there at nite..haix..we talk n we laugh..haha...we leave love messages for one another using the voice recorder on our fone..lester love the song "yoU're beAuTiFuL".i have been listening to it nowdaes..then he was hungry n we went to one of the "hawker centre".he bought sting ray n the clam..it taste real good euu noe.tat dae we went home around 1plus haha...love him

[mousee miin n hamsterr thaii]

14/9/05 (fridae)

Lester stayed at my house till 4 plus in the morning then he went home...haha...was beri shocked not to see him around the next dae..n i called him to ask him over..haha..tat dae was a bad dae...i was having my period..oH..n it hurts haix..tat morning i had big breakfastthen we went out..i was feeling real bad..n i vomited.then around the afternoon lester suggested to go his house 4 a rest.so i went to his house.i asked huda over too...we chat at his place.till my mother call mi.n ask did i open her drawer?..i was shocked..n i ask her to check if anithing is missing inside..as i dunno aniting..realli dunno.then my mother called again n said her $800, a ring n a necklace was gone!..i was like so shock as i noe its lester le...y everything he had is the same as wad my mother lost..haix.tat dae my dad ask him to go home wit mi..i din even think tat its the last time i eva hold lester's hand n its alsothe last time he eva come to my house euu noe..haiix...sad..i was beri mad at tat time n my parents keep saying tat i help Him in this keep saying tat i m involved!...i was beri angryn i said..u all wan call police call LA!...i regretted saying tat line tat cause lester to b in jail now..=(...haiix..awhile later the police came..they arrested lester infront of mi.i was shock..till i can't sae a thing.tats my dae..without lester.i cried 4 the next few daes..haiix...

i once promised him tat this yr will b his happiest bdae eva. but i can't celebrate wit him animorehis bdae is on the 18/10/05 n our aniversary was on the 19/10/05...whie mux all these happen..

-heart broken-

i love 7260 the fone alot...then keep askin when he will buy 4 miie mah...haiix..i was jux jokiin wiit him niiathen after one dae..my darlin bought 4 mi..n he himself a 7270then i ask hiim where he get the moneyhe sae bank interest..then i stupid i believe hiim lohx...then we r like sho happi loh...so much money use..then later he have a ring n necklace..he sae his dad ask him to pawn one...then he nv let mi see the ring n necklacethen tat evening my mother call mi sae her $800 n a ring n necklace lost..i noe its him le mah...haiix...then my mother charge him..now he in jail...:'(..beri sad....

``xiaolingzi ponders: We should treasure everything we haf now and not regret after losing it. some things we onli haf one chance in our whole lifetime.

| m|ss u @ 12:50 AM